Author's note:
Same universe as ‘Someone wake me up’. Kind of. But not really. And I
admit that I messed up with some facts and wasn't able to decide
whether to use British or American English. Oh boy.
Predictable things
There are things that you can predict in life. Small things. Mundane
things. Things that you hardly keep track of during your day. You can
predict that you will wake up next morning, feel reluctant to leave the
cocoon of warm sheets. You will brush your teeth; maybe even will have
time to munch on a toast or two. You will have your coffee black, but
most probably will add two sugars instead of one. Will be late to work
and curse traffic all the while waiting for lift to take you to the
twenty-seventh floor.
You will spend your eight hour shift thinking of nothing and everything
at the same time. You will alternate between doing analytical reports
and surfing facebook contacts. Two smoke breaks and one lunch and you
can count on your day being almost over. Beating the traffic after six
is predictably impossible, and you find yourself stuck at the same
traffic lights as yesterday and as many days before.
The world seems to stand still around you. Nothing changes day after
day. You think you are stuck. You think you are doomed to see the same
faces and the same spreadsheets every single day until you die.
But then you blink and when you open your eyes you can see that the
world has shifted.
There’s that much one can predict in life. Only small things. Mundane
things. But then one day everything changes. You wake up and there is
warm body pressed to yours and you are reluctant to leave the cocoon of
warm sheets for all other reasons. You brush your teeth; discard all
hopes of a decent breakfast. You have your coffee from a vending
machine at office building, instant and disgustingly sweet. You are
late to work because someone dragged you back into bed with the
powerful persuasion of soft lips and bold hands.
You spend eight hours contemplating making a phone call, picking up and
then putting down the receiver hundreds of times without dialing. You
smoke through a whole pack and can’t stomach your lunch but the day
seems to last forever. Beating traffic is a labour of Sisyphean
variety, endless and totally pointless. You are stuck at the same
traffic lights as yesterday, but this time it means you have only two
more turns before you get home.
This time it’s just different.
The world has shifted.
Because he came into the picture.
It still feels strange to see Jaejoong in your kitchen cooking a
dinner. Lasagna (of all things!), he says and smiles. It’s his clothes
that lie on your bed in obscenely neat piles. His keys and his cell
phone are on your bed night table and you think you have spotted an
unfamiliar toothbrush at the bathroom. It’s strange and exciting and
simply unpredictable.
Jaejoong’s words are like smiles and his smiles are like kisses. He
seems to know everything about you and nothing about the world around
you. He brings home a guitar and music sheets, while your brief case is
full of business reports and engagement reviews. His jeans and t-shirts
play hide and seek between your suits in the wardrobe. He can’t live
without his iPod as much as you can’t without your Blackberry. And
while you have expected to have disagreements and fights over groceries
and TV channels and even dishes washing duties, you have none. And it’s
strange and exciting and simply unpredictable how well Jaejoong has
fitted in into your life and has become your most predictable thing.
World is full of small things. Mundane things. Things that you hardly
keep track of during your day. But when you open your eyes in the
morning and see him smiling down at you, you know that the world has
shifted. And you have shifted with it.
May 12, 2009